My dear blog, I have not forgotten about you! I’ve just been so disgustingly busy this past month and have not had time to sit down and really put my heart into anything. I literally started getting withdrawals and figured enough was enough! It’s time to post again!
So, with New Years Eve coming up in just a few days, I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting upon this past year. I can honestly say that this year has been, hands down, the most emotional and financially challenging year of my life, yet somehow at the same time been the most exciting and gratifying one.
2011 started off with escaping the woes of unemployment and landing a great job at an entertainment firm. I had no experience in that industry, but have learned a lot over time and feel more and more confident with each passing day. I work with some of the most amazing people I know (each in their own right) and have learned so much from every one of them. I have nothing but respect and admiration for them, and I’m not easily impressed or moved by anyone!
This year I was able to go to Key West and Orlando twice. I went to Key West for my Birthday in April and again for the Poker Run in September. The Orlando trips were in October for Halloween Horror Nights and then at the beginning of this month for my company’s End of Year Retreat. All four trips were pretty damn awesome, I must say!
On both trips to Key West, I made new friends and got to spend a lot of time out on the water. The first trip out on the boat was just for fun and relaxation, but the second was for sport (Fishing for Dolphin (Mahi)). And on both trips, I almost drowned! True Story!
Both Orlando trips were a lot more relaxed than the trips to the Keys, but they were still a great time; Particularly the company retreat. We hit up both Universal and Islands of Adventure and had a great dinner at Emeril’s. I also got to know my coworkers on a more personal level and feel like our bond has grown stronger and are now an even better team than before.
But along with all the awesomeness comes the bad. My mom spent a good six months out of the year very sick with a mystery illness that no doctor was able to figure out. In the end, she just rode it out until it just magically went away. Thanks to that condition though, she lost her job and things became very difficult for us at home.
During this time I found myself in a relationship with a guy who I thought I was in love with. Charming, attractive, and a chef, so the foodie in me was thrilled! Things were great at first, but that quickly faded. I will make a long story short and cut to the chase; Things did not end pretty because he had betrayed me and of course I walked out with only my clothes, pots and pans, my cat and a pretty hefty I.O.U from the dick.
At first I allowed myself to be overwhelmed with how horrible my situation was, but quickly snapped out of it. I knew quite well that there are a lot of people out there who have had it way worse than me and were still able to rise up on top. So, what did I do? I started focusing my energy on things that I knew I needed to take care of and on things that made ME happy:
Writing – I started writing more and have received so much recognition for it in the last three months that I am literally speechless. I’ve acquired a large following and I am so grateful for that.
Quitting Smoking – It’s been a little over three months now since I quit. I do have the occasional cigarette while out drinking with other smokers, but that’s as far as it goes. I have not bought a pack since mid September and I don’t plan on ever doing so again.
Diet and Exercise – After mustering a lot of courage I managed to change my diet and force myself to join a boot camp. All in all I lost a total of 17lbs.
Work – I have put more focus into work than on anything else and I am seeing the results of that come back to me three-fold. All I will say is that I LOVE the company I work for and look forward to the adventures and experience this next year will bring us!
I almost feel like a Phoenix, rising up from the ashes. Where once I was completely lost, scared, and insecure with my hands and heart completely empty I am now focused, brave, secure and full of love. I feel as if I’ve accomplished more in these last three months than I had in the entire year.
For the first time in my 26 years, I will finally be moving into a place of my own (Pathetic, I know). Now I be able to say that I am living on my own and that I was able to do it all by myself. And since I’m starting from scratch, I am buying all new furniture and decorating the place how I want and looking forward to showing it off via photo-overload!
In the end, as I had mentioned before, this year may have been incredibly challenging, but it has also been quite good to me. I have learned more about myself than ever before and now know what I can be capable of manifesting and accomplishing if I just put my mind and heart into it.
Here’s to 2011! Thank you for the lessons and the good times! I welcome 2012 with open arms and wish the best for everyone!
Happy New Year!